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Within a
period of six months, we
recently had to make the awful decision to put
both of our beloved dogs to sleep. I hate that
term. We didn’t have to put them to sleep. We had to end
their lives. First, Greta, then Jake. If you
have ever faced that choice, you know that it'll break your heart. We've
been here and done it before, and it never, ever
gets any easier. We're without a canine family
member at this writing, but if history teaches
us anything, that won't be the case for very
long.
REMEMBERING
DOGS WE LOVED
You brought
us such joy. That’s why we were willing to
accept what we knew from the beginning--- that
you would be given just a few short years to
live, and that losing you would bring shattering
pain.
A few people,
surprised by the depth of the grief involved,
have said to me, “But it was just a dog.” Before
I exploded, I remembered there was no way they
could understand.
They never
watched a new puppy, clumsy and excited,
delighting in each discovery of his world. They
never had a puppy nibble their fingers, cuddle
in their lap, grow familiar with their voice and
the touch of their hand, until a bond was
formed, and they belonged to each other.
They never
joined in games a dog created for them to share.
They never watched him frolic, filled with pure
joy at being with them, at doing something
together.
If there are
children dear to them, they never had a dog lie
down, ears back, and gently cover the little
ones with kisses. They never saw a dog keep them
safe, stop them from wandering more than a few
steps away.
Times they
were lonely, they never felt a dog’s familiar
nudge that said, “Hey, I’m here.” When they were
sad, they never had a dog press his head against
their knee and make them feel better, just
because he cared. When nights were long and
shadows seemed sinister, they never heard the
reassuring sounds of their dog standing guard
over them nearby. They never experienced the
unconditional love of a dog, the love that
doesn’t know or care about all of the standards
by which the rest of the world judges us. They
never marveled at how the love of a dog
transcends the barrier between species.
They never
saw their cherished friend walk more slowly by
their side, take longer naps before the fire, as
seasons passed. They never ached, while they
watched him trying harder and harder to keep up
the routine they enjoyed together. They never
saw him grow old and sick, and agonized over
whether the time had come to let him go. They
never had to wonder if they were delaying the
end for their dog's sake or their own.
The only
purpose our dogs know is to love us. The only
faith they hold is that we love them, too, and
loving them, will do what is best for them. The
only hope they have is that they will live on as
part of our hearts.
Those who
say, “But it was only a dog,” couldn’t possibly
understand..
Here are some of the dogs who
have played such an important role in Dick’s
life and mine.
Dick’s
wedding present to me was this handsome fellow
when he was a five-week-old puppy. Bravo had a
cast iron stomach. He ate the tops off a whole
potted plant of mums once, and another time
devoured a complete pound of goat milk fudge we
had inadvertently left in the car. (Goat milk
fudge is delicious. you should try it.) He was
all that a German Shepherd should be, and he
hooked us on the breed.
Brandy
joined us in Pittsburgh. She was a sweet soul,
living totally in Bravo’s shadow, but she never
seemed to mind.
Dick
and Trover were inseparable. That scrappy old
boy, (Trover, that is ) lived to be 16 years
old. Though his exact lineage was a mystery,
Trover was a regal fellow when he was bathed and
brushed. Once, Dick and I were traveling and
took him with us to a rather up-scale hotel. We
chose it because we knew they accepted dogs. In
line just ahead of us was a woman with a fluffed
and groomed Maltese. The desk clerk fawned over
her.
When we stepped up with Trover, she looked as if
we might have a communicable disease. “And what
kind of dog is THAT?” she asked coolly. It
annoyed me.
I leaned close. “Well, I probably shouldn’t tell
you, but this is a real Pu-yeti,” I said.
She looked confused.
“They are so rare that most people are not aware
of them,” I continued, “My husband was on
business in Tibet, where this is the dog of
royalty. He did a favor for the Dalai Lama and
received this puppy as a reward. Trover had just
been weaned from his diet of yak butter, so he
was all right to travel.”
She looked at the dog with emerging interest.
“Really?”
“Usually, no one is permitted to remove Pu-yetis
from the country, but they made an exception for
Trover, provided we signed an agreement never to
breed him. There is such concern about keeping
the blood lines pure. We understand there is a
female Pu-yeti in the United States, but we
would never dream of breaking our promise,” I
said.
“Oh no, of course not,” she responded.
“Now, can you assure me that no one will disturb
him if we leave him in the room for a short
period?” I said.
“Oh, madam, I’ll alert the staff. He’ll be quite
safe. We’ll take special care. It isn’t every
day we have a Pu-yeti staying with us.”
I felt pretty certain of that.
Later, Dick asked where I got the name Pu-yeti.
I told him I always thought Trover looked a bit
like a cross between a poodle and a yeti.
Dick
found Flynn on a highway median, where he had
crawled after being hit by a car. The garbage
men had just come along and were ready to
destroy him, but Dick pulled him into the car
and took him to a vet. Flynn went to work with
Dick when he was the anchor man on KHOU in
Houston. Everyone around the studio knew him,
and at air time, someone would page Flynn to
come to the studio. He lay there beside Dick
throughout the show. When the theme signaled
that the news was over, Flynn got up and
sauntered to the door, the camera following him.
Only once was there a problem. The regular
weather man on the show was ill, and someone
filled in for him. Flynn thought that just
wasn’t right and barked at the hapless soul
until Dick led him out of the studio. Flynn
never could conquer his hatred of white trucks,
and one of them got him in the end.. After he
died, the TV station received calls for weeks,
asking where he was.
On
the newscast, Dick did a feature about dogs at
the SPCA who needed a family. One such puppy who
appeared on the show was Murphy. I fell in love
and called Dick, saying please bring him home.
Murphy was an independent, but loving dog. One
night, I was out of town, it was raining and
Dick had the flu. Though he always walked
Murphy, that night he had no choice but to let
him out on his own. Murphy never came back. We
haunted the pound and the SPCA and ran ads in
the paper, but we never saw him again.
Morgen
had a beautiful soul. I wrote the piece at the
start of this page in his memory.
More than that I can’t say about what he meant
to me. He loved Dick, but of all our dogs, he
alone was really just mine. We had to end his
life when he was twelve, because hip displasia
had left him unable to stand. Losing him nearly
leveled me. He lives in my heart.
Dick
found Straw when he was a tiny puppy, running
around a gas station on the road somewhere
between Houston and Victoria. No one knew where
he came from, so Dick brought him home.
We already had two dogs, and when I saw this
yipping little tornado dashing around, I told
Dick, “This is the last straw.” The name stuck,
and so did Straw. We had meant to find a home
for him, but we soon became too attached to let
him go. Straw never understood how little he
was, He stood ready to take on the world,
especially big dogs. Max tolerated him, He
seemed to think it would be beneath his dignity
to notice a little gnat like the golden ball of
fur that kept yapping at him. Last Straw died of
old age at 15.
After
Morgen died, I knew I would want a shepherd
again one day. But I was afraid to take the
chance of another dog developing displasia, a
condition commonly affecting the breed. The vet
found a fine pair of shepherds from Germany, who
were OFA certified to be free of displasia going
back 5 generations. We bought pick of their
litter. Max was an incredible physical specimen,
a gorgeous 110 pounds of pride and independence.
He could be gentle and loving, and he was an
absolute pussy-cat around children. But he was
born believing that he was in charge of the
world. He was sometimes playful. He loved
stealing my wash cloth when I was taking a bath.
He was never aggressive, but I can’t imagine
anyone wanting to challenge him. One night when
I was home alone, a man knocked on the door. He
made me uneasy, and I asked him to go. Instead,
he stuck his foot in the door. Max suddenly
flashed around from where he had been out of
sight behind me. I’ve never heard anything like
the sounds that poured from his throat. His hair
stood up, and his fangs were bared. I was
terrified that he would attack before I could
stop him. The man was gone in the blink of an
eye. We had to end Max’s life, also at 12, because he could no longer get up to go outside,
and Dick couldn’t lift him.
Breezy
was the most stunning female shepherd I ever
saw, (until Greta, of course.) Bred by the
famous breeders of shepherds, the Monks of New
Skeet in New York, she had been destined for a
life of producing more perfect shepherds like
herself. We got her from the breeder who owned
Max’s Dad and who had meant her as a mate for
that beautiful old boy. When the breeders
decided to become missionaries, we bought
Breezy. She was Max’s physical equal, and they
had two litters of flawless puppies. Breezy was
as feminine and lady-like as a dog can be. She
had an innate sweetness. Though she usually was
submissive around Max, she occasionally had
enough and put him in his place with a sharp
bark. He didn’t argue. Breezy had cancer, and we
had to end her life when she was ten.
Shortly
after Breezy died, our vet called and told us
there was a female shepherd we must see. I was
incensed, and asked him if he had forgotten that
we had just lost Breezy. “But you still have
Max,” he said, “And he is so depressed without
her that I think a companion is just what he
needs.” He told us that Greta was bred by the
same people responsible for Breezy. The
young couple who owned her had two small
children and another on the way. They were
looking for a loving family for Greta. He had
been transferred to Chicago, and a move, with
house hunting, house selling, etc. was facing
them. It was just too much to handle all of that
and Greta, too. We went to see her. She
immediately jumped on the couch between us. It
was as if she had just been waiting for us to
come for her. We’re convinced God led her to us.
She was a
wonderful gift. Max perked up and tottered
around another 6 months after she came.
Greta lived
and was so loved for 12 years. In the end, the
same hip malady that struck down Max struck her,
too. And, like Max, we let her go when Dick
could no longer lift her to go outside.

Jolly Jake John arrived in our
household in 2002. Greta had been part of a
nightly play session with neighbor dogs in
Houston. We thought she must be lonely without
others of her kind no longer around. So we
decided to find her a pal. We asked the vet
whether he had any idea where we might find a
grown male dog, who probably wouldn’t be
adopted, unless by us. It just so happened he
had one at his office. The people at the local
pound had a full house, but they had fallen in
love with this guy and refused to put him down.
Instead, they were giving him a temporary stay
by boarding him at the vet’s and hoping for a
miracle. The girls at the vets office babbled
about the dog. “He’s such a jolly fellow,” said
one.
The vet said he was “about a
year old.” But he assured us, “he’s fully
grown.” Wrong. Jake was pure puppy, with all of
the traits of a six-month-old. He was a load.
Whatever, we fell for him. Once we named him
Jolly Jake, there was no turning back.
The pound had us fill out an
application comparable to one the government
probably requires of applicants for a job at the
Pentagon. Then the inspector came over to check
us, our house and our fence.. I was downright
nervous, but we passed. I think their
investigation shows concern and care for the
animals, and I applaud it. We headed straight
for the vet’s and collected the newly examined
and vaccinated fourth member of our pack.
Greta wasn’t sure about Jake at
first, but he won her over with his infectious
joy at each new experience. They romped together
for years and became great pals. When Greta
died, Jake, who knew only that she had suddenly
disappeared, just like "Mom" had into the
nursing home, never again knew what, quite, to
do ..
Copyright 2001-2012 Ramona John
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